For me, Christmas often brings out the worst.

Every year, when I flip the calendar to December, I get caught up in making Christmas turn out “right.” It’s supposed to be the “most wonderful time of the year,” but knowing this only causes me to have heightened expectations about how everything should look and taste and be. Rather than visions of sugar plums, I have Pinterest pictures dancing in my head driving me to new ideals for decorating, gift-wrapping, and treat-making.

Without meaning to, I evolve into a “Christmas Control Girl” who makes my family think it’s anything but the “most wonderful time of the year.”

Controlling Christmas

There is such irony in this, especially when I consider the first Christmas. For Mary, nothing was turning out “right”—at least not humanly speaking. But then Mary was human! She was a normal teenage girl with plans for her future and dreams of how everything should go. And just like the rest of us, Mary could have been a Control Girl.

In my book, Control Girl, I combed through the stories of seven Bible women, looking for lessons I could apply to my own control struggles. My biggest surprise was to lean into the Bible—which is a story about God—and see these women hijacking the story, and making it all about them!

  • Sarah wanted a baby.
  • Hagar wanted freedom.
  • Rebekah wanted to control the future.
  • Rachel and Leah wanted to outdo each other.
  • And Miriam wanted to be honored.

While I can relate to why each of these women wanted to take control of the storyline, I also wonder if God is going to sit back and let her do it! I mean, in each story there’s a woman contending for her own purposes, rather than surrendering her story and her family to God’s greater, overarching purposes.

But then, isn’t that what I’m doing, too? Especially at Christmas, I’m on a high-octane mission to make everything perfect for my little family and my little home and my little life. But isn’t Christmas all about Jesus?

If you want to see a woman who’s doing Christmas the right way, check out the story of Mary, mother of Jesus. She could have been like the rest of these Bible women. She could have clung to her own small-minded ideals and plans for her family and her future. She could have tried to control even the Christmas story.

Control Girl Mary

Just think of it.

When the angel arrived with news of her impending pregnancy, Mary could have reacted like a Control Girl in any number of ways:

  • She could have become stubborn and feisty, saying, “Oh, no, I’m not having a baby. I’m planning my wedding! WED-ding. You got that, Mr. Gabriel?”
  • She could have had a panic attack, saying, “Pregnant? But I’m not married! I mean, do you know what they do to unwed mothers around here, Gabriel? I could be stoned! As in, they’ll pick up rocks and throw them at me until I collapse in a bloody heap!”
  • She could have become fretful and agitated, pacing back and forth, saying, “What is my mother going to say? What will my cousin say? Oh, no! What will Joseph say? What am I gonna do . . . what am I gonna doooo? Don’t tell me to calm down!”
  • She could have taken a manipulative, damage-control approach, saying, “Joseph, let’s get married right now. If we hurry, we can make this look like a honeymoon baby. We have to! If you love me, you will.”
  • She could have burst through Elizabeth’s door, saying, “My life is over! All of my dreams are smashed! No, I’m not being dramatic; I’m pregnant!”
  • She could have stamped her foot, when Joseph saddled up the donkey for Bethlehem, saying, “Are you kidding me? Do you see this belly? I am not going. You can go by yourself, and I’ll stay with my mother.”
  • She could have been entitled and rude when the Bethlehem innkeeper turned them away, saying, “Joseph, did you tell that innkeeper who I am? I am the mother of God’s Son, for crying out loud. How dare He stuff me in this stable!”

Mary could’ve clung to control over her own small-minded ideals and plans, just like I do. Because she surrendered, we have the Christmas story.

Mary could've clung to control over her own small-minded ideals and plans, just like I do. Because she surrendered, we have the Christmas story. Click To Tweet

Reorienting around Jesus

Instead of being a Christmas Control Girl, she was a beautiful example of a Jesus Girl. She gave up control and reoriented her life around Jesus.

Listen to the deep surrender in Mary’s words when she responded to Gabriel’s message. She said, “Behold, I am the servant of the Lord; let it be to me according to your word” (Luke 1:38). This is remarkable, because for all the honor of being chosen for this role in God’s story, there was just as much dishonor and sacrifice to Mary’s own personal story. Her life was going to be upturned, her plans and security threatened. Yet rather than objecting or panicking or obsessing, Mary responded with sweet, trusting surrender.

The fact that she reacted this way immediately (rather than needing time to warm up to the idea) leads me to believe that this wasn’t the first time Mary had said, “I am the Lord’s servant.” Turn-on-a-dime surrender doesn’t just happen. It’s cultivated over time. I’m guessing that in the months and years leading up to Gabriel's arrival, Mary was a woman who often said, I'm the Lord's servant. Let it be to me according to your word. Click To Tweet

This little-by-little practice of surrender is what separates Control Girls from Jesus Girls. Jesus Girls enter the day or the season with a disposition of surrender toward God. Control Girls habitually clutch their own small-minded plans for how everything should go.

Cultivating Surrender

As a woman who craves control, I’m learning that I can’t live life both ways. I can’t clamp down on my own self-focused ideals and surrender to God at the same time. I can’t give vent to my desire for control over the future and surrender my future to God. I can’t develop a habit of insisting on my own way and keep Jesus at the center. This is especially true at Christmas.

Because I have heightened expectations at Christmastime, I must be careful to enter the season with extra focus on surrender. It’s ridiculous how bent out of shape I can get over little things like how the ornaments are arranged or the orderliness of gift opening. But surrendering in these little, momentary ways can train my heart for the bigger things God might ask me to surrender.

Like with Mary, God’s interruptions in life are often invitations to play a role in the unfolding story that centers on Jesus. He asks us to set aside our plans and let our story get swept up into the bigger story that is all about God and His people. And like Mary, we have a choice. Will we try to take back control? Or will we surrender, saying, “Behold, I am the Lord’s servant; let it be to me according to your word.”

Did Christmas bring out the worst in you? What heightened expectations do you need to manage or let go of in the future? Which small thing can you surrender today, which will help cultivate an attitude that says, “Yes, Lord” to whatever big thing He might ask of you?


This post first appeared Revive Our Hearts.

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